It’s been a while, hasn’t it?

I’m just going to dive right in.

I suffer from depression. I was on top of it for the last 3.5 years, so much so that I thought it was gone. I had slowly let my guard down. With everything going on in the world and personal stuff, I suddenly found myself in a bad way.

Talking about it is hard mainly because I pride myself on being strong and self-sufficient. And I don’t want to be seen differently.

These past few months I have had crippling self doubt, lack of motivation, lack of enjoyment among many other lack ofs. Feeling like I am stuck with all the positive feelings just out of reach. There are there but I just can’t get to them.

HOWEVER. I am mending. It is slow. But I am mending.

And when I have mended, I will be back.